The Smashing Pumpkins - Soma
Nothing left to say
And all I’ve left to do
Is run away
And she led me on, down
With secrets I can’t keep
Close your eyes and sleep
Don’t wait up for me
Hush now don’t you speak
Wrapped my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is your broken heart, your heart
Soma, I’m all by myself
As I’ve always felt
I’ll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools
One last kiss for me…yeah
One last kiss good night
Didn’t want to lose you once again
Didn’t want to be your friend
Fulfilled a promise made of tin
And crawled back to you
I’m all by myself
As I’ve always felt
I’ll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you
So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When god sleeps in bliss
And I’m all by myself
As I’ve always felt
And I’ll betray myself
SST Throwback Thursday
Best Pumpkins song ever.
Last night, while spending some much needed time away in the K-hole due to a month of the deepest and darkest depression I’ve ever felt in my life, I had an [almost] life-changing experience. I decided to text people I haven’t talked to in awhile. Telling them how much I love them and how much they matter in relationship to the grand scheme of the universe and that they should never feel small or worthless. (If you’re reading this and you got that text, yeah, sorry about that. Although I did mean it). Then, as I was coming out of it, I looked across the room at my reflection in the mirror and had an epiphany that would [almost] change my life forever. It finally dawned on me after 37 years of life that I should somethin’, somethin’, somethin’… live life on my own terms… somethin’, somethin’ myself… somethin’… people that matter most. I remember being filled with an incredible sense of relief and joy and warm happy light. Now that I’m sober, I can’t quite wrap my head around what that epiphany was. When/if I ever remember it, you people will be the fist to know.
*sigh* I should really start taking notes when I’m high.
Before I go into this, I want to make it quite clear, this is NOT a personal attack against Favstar.fm, it’s owners, or indeed ALL of it’s users. For the most part, the people using it are very comedically talented, and actually, when you peel away the edges of their snark and comedy, quite…
Total opposite, bro. 12 inch meatball sub. Mozzarella cheese. Jalapeno peppers. And loaded with parmesan cheese.
So four of the seven TotDs I gave out this week were unacknowledged. I don’t think anyone should HAVE to say thank you and they can do whatever they like. But if someone pays you a compliment, and that’s what TotDs are in my opinion, then it doesn’t kill you to DM/@/whatever a quick thanks. Unless you have no manners. In which case, fair enough. But personally I think it’s pretty rude.
If you didn’t already know, I’m @chuckdelaware on twitter, it started out as a joke but turned into a lesson on, ‘how fucking retarded, people on the net are!’.
I signed up to one of the sites that get you follows, retweeted his tweets and only followed those people who followed Chuck, that…
I may regret this so-called rant or drama, but I cannot, WILL NOT shut the fuck up. So here ya go, tonight’s random fucked-up-ness, if you missed it. A tweet that made our Slappy go away…
I love you, boyfriend. You are the best thing in my world. I adore you to no end. If it was Valentine’s Day and I was super corny, I’d send you a card which asked you to Bee Mine which had a picture of a bee on it. If it was Christmas, we’d snuggle next to the Christmas tree and drink cocoa and watch the lights twinkle. If it was New Year’s Eve I’d kiss you at midnight. But it’s just July and I still love you, in the heat, far away, and with everything I have.
I love you too, baby. You are my beacon of light in a world of darkness.